Monday, October 24, 2011

I'm back!

Hello Friends,

It's been a good while for me...I eat well & exercise, then lose my "control",
and it continues as quite the cycle!

I am back on track again! This time, I would like to thank my facebook Weight Loss
group. The group members are really encouraging, motivating, and keeping me
accountable.

I WANT TO DO THIS!!!!! I want to feel the peace and serenity that come with eating
well & exercising!

Hugs,

May

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Doing pretty good!

Hello Friends,

I have been doing quite well since last week's post, yayyyy!!!!
Whenever I want to eat I read OA literature, call a phone meeting,
and use my imagery tool!

I've been eating well and just weighed 162!! Yayyyyyy!!!

Hugs,

May

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Imagery as a tool to overcome my bingeing disorder


Hello Friends,

Is it really already July?!?!?!??!! WHAT???!??!?!??!! Sadly, I am at around 165 lbs or so. Yes, I have gained. Doesn't matter how many miles I ran last week, binge eating is not cancelled out by the exercise.

OA is not enough, & I REALLY use all the tools & work the steps!! I was even told by my sponsor that I'm just not
willing to give up the foods, follow the directions I'm told...it's that the food takes on a life of its own in my brain!

Yesterday I had a small revelation which I pray WILL be the answer to my problem.

IMAGERY: I closed my eyes & imagined ordering all I wanted & planned to order: my typical binge that I absolutely love is
about 1/2 a pizza with mushrooms, 1/2 a cheesesteak hoagie, 6 hot wings w/blue cheese, & lots of fries w/cheez whiz.
for dessert: a huge cinnamon bun, a brownie, some candy bars, ice cream.

I imagined how amazingly delicious all of this food was for several minutes. Then I imagined the moment I was done.

I FELT LET DOWN. I LET MYSELF DOWN. I CAN'T TURN BACK. I REFUSE TO PURGE. I'M A WRECK. I FEEL SICK & DISGUSTING. I AM ASHAMED.

And I opened my eyes & WAS THRILLED THAT I DID NOT, NOT, NOT do it!!!!!!!!! I felt elated, ecstatic, thrilled, amazingly powerful over this eating disorder.

Yes, I had read OA literature (www.oa.org), emailed OA friends, talked to my husband, wrote about it in my diary, & visited www.bingeeatingtherapy.com. But using imagery was quite powerful.

Hugs & more hugs to you!

May

Monday, March 21, 2011

I have an OA sponsor!

Hello Friends,

Between my last post and the present I have gained well over 10 lbs and
am now in the 160's. It has been feeling impossible to eat well.

I have had an OA sponsor for 10 days and it has made such a
huge difference in my life that I have been abstinent (not overeaten)
in 10 days!!

This is quite a journey for me. I am working the program to which
I'm so glad that it helps in every part of my life. www.oa.org

Hugs,

May

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Hard times


Hello Friends,

I am having such a tough time eating well so I have resorted to
exercising almost daily because it makes me feel in control of myself enough
to eat well. It is a domino effect for me...it makes me WANT to eat well!
It's been helping the last couple of weeks definitely! I am a little over 150 right
now.

Hugs,

May

Friday, September 3, 2010

I love OA!

Hi Friends,

I absolutely love my OA fellowship, I definitely don't feel alone in my healthy eating venture! The way the quality of my life is improving, it is showing in my weight--I am about 145 right now.

I am eating "normal" portions and exercising about 3 times a week. Please write me, I'd love to hear from you and love to have friends to support and that will support me.

Hugs,

May

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

I'm 33 today!


Hi Friends,

Here I am at 33 at around 148 or so, and I would NOT be at this number right now if it had not been for the OA fellowship.

I am happy with how I am doing with eating and exercising:-)

Hugs,

May