Hello Friends,
It's been a good while for me...I eat well & exercise, then lose my "control",
and it continues as quite the cycle!
I am back on track again! This time, I would like to thank my facebook Weight Loss
group. The group members are really encouraging, motivating, and keeping me
accountable.
I WANT TO DO THIS!!!!! I want to feel the peace and serenity that come with eating
well & exercising!
Hugs,
May
Monday, October 24, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Doing pretty good!
Hello Friends,
I have been doing quite well since last week's post, yayyyy!!!!
Whenever I want to eat I read OA literature, call a phone meeting,
and use my imagery tool!
I've been eating well and just weighed 162!! Yayyyyyy!!!
Hugs,
May
I have been doing quite well since last week's post, yayyyy!!!!
Whenever I want to eat I read OA literature, call a phone meeting,
and use my imagery tool!
I've been eating well and just weighed 162!! Yayyyyyy!!!
Hugs,
May
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Imagery as a tool to overcome my bingeing disorder
Hello Friends,
Is it really already July?!?!?!??!! WHAT???!??!?!??!! Sadly, I am at around 165 lbs or so. Yes, I have gained. Doesn't matter how many miles I ran last week, binge eating is not cancelled out by the exercise.
OA is not enough, & I REALLY use all the tools & work the steps!! I was even told by my sponsor that I'm just not
willing to give up the foods, follow the directions I'm told...it's that the food takes on a life of its own in my brain!
Yesterday I had a small revelation which I pray WILL be the answer to my problem.
IMAGERY: I closed my eyes & imagined ordering all I wanted & planned to order: my typical binge that I absolutely love is
about 1/2 a pizza with mushrooms, 1/2 a cheesesteak hoagie, 6 hot wings w/blue cheese, & lots of fries w/cheez whiz.
for dessert: a huge cinnamon bun, a brownie, some candy bars, ice cream.
I imagined how amazingly delicious all of this food was for several minutes. Then I imagined the moment I was done.
I FELT LET DOWN. I LET MYSELF DOWN. I CAN'T TURN BACK. I REFUSE TO PURGE. I'M A WRECK. I FEEL SICK & DISGUSTING. I AM ASHAMED.
And I opened my eyes & WAS THRILLED THAT I DID NOT, NOT, NOT do it!!!!!!!!! I felt elated, ecstatic, thrilled, amazingly powerful over this eating disorder.
Yes, I had read OA literature (www.oa.org), emailed OA friends, talked to my husband, wrote about it in my diary, & visited www.bingeeatingtherapy.com. But using imagery was quite powerful.
Hugs & more hugs to you!
May
Monday, March 21, 2011
I have an OA sponsor!
Hello Friends,
Between my last post and the present I have gained well over 10 lbs and
am now in the 160's. It has been feeling impossible to eat well.
I have had an OA sponsor for 10 days and it has made such a
huge difference in my life that I have been abstinent (not overeaten)
in 10 days!!
This is quite a journey for me. I am working the program to which
I'm so glad that it helps in every part of my life. www.oa.org
Hugs,
May
Between my last post and the present I have gained well over 10 lbs and
am now in the 160's. It has been feeling impossible to eat well.
I have had an OA sponsor for 10 days and it has made such a
huge difference in my life that I have been abstinent (not overeaten)
in 10 days!!
This is quite a journey for me. I am working the program to which
I'm so glad that it helps in every part of my life. www.oa.org
Hugs,
May
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