Doing pretty good!

Hello Friends,

I have been doing quite well since last week's post, yayyyy!!!!
Whenever I want to eat I read OA literature, call a phone meeting,
and use my imagery tool!

I've been eating well and just weighed 162!! Yayyyyyy!!!

Hugs,

May

Imagery as a tool to overcome my bingeing disorder

Hello Friends,

Is it really already July?!?!?!??!! WHAT???!??!?!??!! Sadly, I am at around 165 lbs or so. Yes, I have gained. Doesn't matter how many miles I ran last week, binge eating is not cancelled out by the exercise.

OA is not enough, & I REALLY use all the tools & work the steps!! I was even told by my sponsor that I'm just not
willing to give up the foods, follow the directions I'm told...it's that the food takes on a life of its own in my brain!

Yesterday I had a small revelation which I pray WILL be the answer to my problem.

IMAGERY: I closed my eyes & imagined ordering all I wanted & planned to order: my typical binge that I absolutely love is
about 1/2 a pizza with mushrooms, 1/2 a cheesesteak hoagie, 6 hot wings w/blue cheese, & lots of fries w/cheez whiz.
for dessert: a huge cinnamon bun, a brownie, some candy bars, ice cream.

I imagined how amazingly delicious all of this food was for several minutes. Then I imagined the moment I was done.

I FELT LET DOWN. I LET MYSELF DOWN. I CAN'T TURN BACK. I REFUSE TO PURGE. I'M A WRECK. I FEEL SICK & DISGUSTING. I AM ASHAMED.

And I opened my eyes & WAS THRILLED THAT I DID NOT, NOT, NOT do it!!!!!!!!! I felt elated, ecstatic, thrilled, amazingly powerful over this eating disorder.

Yes, I had read OA literature (www.oa.org), emailed OA friends, talked to my husband, wrote about it in my diary, & visited www.bingeeatingtherapy.com. But using imagery was quite powerful.

Hugs & more hugs to you!

May

I have an OA sponsor!

Hello Friends,

Between my last post and the present I have gained well over 10 lbs and
am now in the 160's. It has been feeling impossible to eat well.

I have had an OA sponsor for 10 days and it has made such a
huge difference in my life that I have been abstinent (not overeaten)
in 10 days!!

This is quite a journey for me. I am working the program to which
I'm so glad that it helps in every part of my life. www.oa.org

Hugs,

May

Hard times

Hello Friends,

I am having such a tough time eating well so I have resorted to
exercising almost daily because it makes me feel in control of myself enough
to eat well. It is a domino effect for me...it makes me WANT to eat well!
It's been helping the last couple of weeks definitely! I am a little over 150 right
now.

Hugs,

May

I love OA!

Hi Friends,

I absolutely love my OA fellowship, I definitely don't feel alone in my healthy eating venture! The way the quality of my life is improving, it is showing in my weight--I am about 145 right now.

I am eating "normal" portions and exercising about 3 times a week. Please write me, I'd love to hear from you and love to have friends to support and that will support me.

Hugs,

May

I'm 33 today!

Hi Friends,

Here I am at 33 at around 148 or so, and I would NOT be at this number right now if it had not been for the OA fellowship.

I am happy with how I am doing with eating and exercising:-)

Hugs,

May

1 month of OA!

Hi Friends,

I've officially been in OA now for a whole month
and I've got to say with all of my heart how the
fellowship has made all of the difference in my
eating obsession issues.

I was up near 160 right before OA and now I am
at 148. I would not be eating well alone, it is
with the fellowship that it is possible for me.

Hugs,

May